The quality of fortitude is essential for those of us embarking on the inner path, it is what helps us to persevere through the gritty/uncomfortable moments of growing on the inside, leading us to the final "glow" moment of awakening and transformation. Lex touches upon the ancient energetic system of "the gunas" to paint a picture of what inner growth actually looks like.
The mind is never satisfied. Never. It is the conditioning of the mind causing us to favor our personal sensitivities and preferences instead of accepting the moment unfolding before us. Lex speaks on how true freedom isn't escaping through the mind (or getting what you want!) but rather bringing to the moment whatever the moment is calling forth in you.
All of us cherish the times of our lives when we are in "flow," when the moments unfold effortlessly and we feel aligned with ourselves, those around us and life itself. Then there are the times we experience being out of flow and we are presented with problem after problem. Lex offers a fresh perspective regarding how to view all the problems of our lives, which will actually support us all into getting back into the flow.
We oftentimes end up clinging to our "truth" regardless of whether or not it is an accurate and complete perception of the ultimate reality. Perception is extremely important for even false perceptions create your reality and when we perceive in error oftentimes the result is some degree of suffering, tightness or disillusion. Lex dives into how we can practice "perceiving" correctly in just a simple step.
Suffering is created by resisting what is unfolding in your life. It's that simple. In this episode Lex dives deep into the stages of the "creative cycle"and applies this cycle to the world of relationships.
How many times have you wished you could just "let go" in an instant? Letting go is one of those mysterious things that you can't necessarily think your way through or force to happen when you want it to. In this episode Lex dives deep into four important points that will help you let go inside and out.
Instead of crumbling under pressure, Lex talks us through the alternative of utilizing the pressure arising in a moment to clean and polish the facets of one's eternally flawless, diamond heart. Lex uses the analogy of viewing the True Self as a diamond, helping us to realize the Truth that no matter what unfolds in our lives, the Truth of who we are remains priceless and brilliant.
Well friends - it’s been a long journey towards releasing this podcast.🤪 Hahah longer than expected! 🙄 I’ve been working on it behind the scenes for almost a year and finally we’re getting there. 🤦🏻♀️ And yes, I do mean “WE” as I have had a lot of help and support with the production of this podcast.
Justin: Your heart is one that is full of service. It’s one of your greatest strengths - remember that always.🐒Thank you for encouraging me to do this, for literally holding my hand through this…ahahah and even dragging me forward in moments. 😆 A single episode wouldn’t exist without your help and support. You’re a true friend…inside out, and upside down.
Aaron + McKenna: Thank you both for pushing me over the finish line!!! Not just the technical side of things, but what truly motivated me was the quality of presence and care both of you recently offered me. That’s the support I really cherish. (PS: You guys always make my job sooooo easy!)
Adam: You might have thought I’ve forgotten but no no no…thank you for correcting me that night I told you I was a geek, and you called me a “DEEP Geek.” You were spot on! Thank you for seeing me so clearly.
One thing I have learned over the four books I’ve written, is that when you create an offering from the very depths of your heart, the whole process is actually more of an inner journey than an outer. With each book I wrote, it had less to do with what was being written on the page and more to do with becoming the author that would eventually write that specific book. And sometimes that takes time!
The same is true for this podcast. It took some time to launch the episodes, not because they weren’t ready to go, but because I wasn’t ready to go. But guess what baby?! I’m ready!!!
So here we go guys…kick back, relax, take a deep breath and prepare to dive deep with me each week as we geek out on the path of Yoga, the philosophical teachings of the masters, and the journey of opening our innermost hearts.
The Deep Geek Podcast is a place where Lex offers a contemporary approach to awakened living.
Lex isn’t just any old geek. As a spiritual teacher and author, Lex geeks out on the DEEP philosophical teachings that pertain to our psychological wellbeing, the fulfillment of our hearts, and ultimately, enlightenment. She discusses the "old skool" teachings in a way that weaves easily into one’s modern day life. Listeners receive a well-balanced, inspired dose of insight and wisdom to support their own paths of awakening and self-realization.
Dive deep with Lex each week and geek out on eastern philosophy, the path of yoga and other relevant spiritual teachings.
I’m not someone who is for or against New Year’s resolutions, yet I do find it important to pay attention to the energy one places behind whatever intention or commitment they make. When we make choices or take actions that come from a limited or constricted place within us our intentions are essentially meaningless.
An intention or commitment is just like a yoga posture - and as I continually remind my students, the poses themselves are meaningless. Absolutely f’in meaningless!! Basically they are shapes we take with the body that we have assigned English animal names to (WTF, right?). BUT…what makes them meaningful is YOU. It is when you fully embody the pose within a moment do you find meaning on the mat.
It is the same with any intention or commitment, they are meaningless unless you allow there to be a genuine movement from the heart behind them, which is the force that brings them ALIVE.
Remind yourself why you are making your intention or commitment, not once on January 1st, but in all the simple moments of your day. Allow this “why” to emerge from the spaciousness and unparalleled power of your heart so that when you do face adversity or shit hits the fan, you have the movement of the heart BEHIND your intention and commitment to carry you through. There is no greater power than the power of the heart, so please sweet friends, whatever it is you do, invest a movement from the heart into it. And just watch, you’ll come alive in ways you would have never expected.
As for me, well…if I had to choose an intention for 2019 it would be the same honest wish I have for you. For us all to COME FULLY ALIVE. How do we do that? To allow the truthfilled movement of our hearts to be our primary guide.
When you remind yourself of what is meaningful to you, you will become automatically connected to the cave of your heart - the infinite temple within.
Here is a New Year’s blessing I wrote, which will be included in my new book - Auspicious Openings (back from the editor, waiting on the cover - yay). These words are my gift to you, because what is meaningful to me as a teacher, is to inspire my students to clear their minds where they are blocked or agitated. To release in their bodies where they feel tight and trapped. And above all else, to soften where they feel hardened so they may open their hearts wherever they feel closed.
This year, come alive with me and “lets go somewhere wonderful we could have never imagined.”
A New Year’s Blessing
As you close the chapter of another year,
Take note that every closing is actually an opening.
For now, you metaphorically say goodbye to a year that has come and gone,
Yet deep down nothing is leaving you.
For years come and go,
Just like the waves rise and fall in the infinite sea,
Yet you lose nothing by it all.
As you scan the horizon with your gaze,
Drinking in the resplendence of this year’s last setting sun,
May a wellspring of eagerness, excitement,
And auspicious wonder overtake you.
There is a new adventure that awaits...
It is here.
Open your heart to it.
You are ready.
This new adventure is called 2019.
So open extra-wide, embrace the unknown and
Welcome the possibility of being surprised & delighted!
Let’s go somewhere wonderful we could have never imagined.
And in this New Year,
May each step you take be on a golden-lit path.
May each hand you hold feel the warmth of your compassion.
May each word you speak spread kindness & clarity.
May each thought that surfaces come from the remembrance of
Who you really are...
An infinite ocean, that loses nothing from the passing waves at sea.
And each day when your eyes open,
May you embark on the adventure of a new day with reverence, humility & fortitude.
May you find patience in the moments when you are quick to act.
May you find wisdom in places you feel disillusioned.
May you find strength in situations where you identify with fragility.
May you find courage to stay OPEN when your heart wants to close.
And most importantly,
May you see only Love everywhere you look.
Every time I go spend time with Amma (Mata Amritanandamayi) it is transformative in all ways. Yet, it isn’t what most people perceive it to be, some over the top, mystical or “woo-woo” event/cult. My experience couldn’t be further away from the sense of these terms.
Sure, there are moments of transcendence and/or incredible expansiveness (I have a collection of some pretty hilarious videos taken in the wee hours of the morning to prove so). But make no mistake, my experience has never been some euphoric, cloud 9, mind-trip.
What I believe to be most important when sharing about my time spent with Amma is that it is a place where it is extremely difficult to lie to oneself. You and I both know all the little ways that we tell ourselves “stories” and get away with it. We perceive ourselves, each other, and life in error and typically our day-to-day activities don’t call us out on our B.S. Ha! Not in the presence of a being such as Amma.
When I am in her presence, the truth is always revealed. Most often this truth isn’t monumental or drastically life-altering like “MOVE TO HAWAII” or “BREAK UP WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND” or “QUIT YOUR JOB!” No no. The truth makes itself known in much more subtle ways, at least for me. Such as an overwhelming sense of a deep all-pervading love swelling within my heart. Or a profound realization of peace about a decision I am about to make. Or even a sudden increase of stamina and devotion for my own path of Yoga when I’m facing difficult times. Ya know, the “stuff” that ends up making the biggest impact in your life but can’t be bought, faked, grasped, or artificially created within.
Specifically, my experience spending time with Amma is a period of accelerated inner work. Emphasis of the word “work.” (Ugh…I’m rolling my eyes.) Being in the Guru’s presence for me – this relationship is very sacred, so I cannot speak for others – is about deeply purifying my heart and removing the residue clouding the mirror that reflects who I really am inside and the window in which I see and perceive others.
One of my soul sisters and I oftentimes joke that seeing Amma is like getting a super, deep cleansing and purifying facial, and that the process starts about 4 weeks before you see her. It is as followed:
4 weeks to go: Cleansing of the Skin
Your life requires a little more focused attention. You find yourself letting go of things with little effort or resistance, yet you sense an energy of purification starting to sweep through your life.
3 weeks and counting: Physical Exfoliation
Things start to get rough and gritty like a microdermabrasion, a heavy-duty scrub, or for all y’all men, think of sandpaper to your face. A person starts to wonder “Why am I so triggered,” hahaha and more importantly, “Why is everyone around me suddenly such assholes?!?” (lol) Like Amma has said, she puts our rough edges together so that we can smooth each other out.
2 weeks before: Chemical Peel
As if the grittiness of the scrub wasn’t enough, then comes the mask or a peel that BURNS hotter than hell itself. Whatever discomfort you thought you were in with the grittiness of the scrub, oh baby, you didn’t realize what was comin’ at ya! This is when one basically loses their mind, emotional pain arises, hurtful things are said, breaks and ending unfold, embarrassing events take place, spontaneously stupid choices are made (Speaking from experience here!) basically…whatever brings you “discomfort” in your life, expect a good dose of it. Wink!
1 week away: Extractions
Alright, so having cleansed, scrubbed and the shit burnt out of you, you’re finally ready for all your GUNK that has been brought to the surface to be extracted! While one might want to avoid this step of the journey at all costs, you really don’t have a choice with all your negative tendencies, karmas and character defects right at the surface. It’s time to purge and purify those pores with the greatest cosmic extractor!
Into Amma’s Arms:
So just imagine, now your pores have been so cleansed and purified that you’re literally wide open. You wait for hours, then finally it’s your turn and you get on your knees right in front of Amma, you’re completely depleted and exhausted by the whole damn process, that you outstretch your arms in full surrender in your body, mind and heart. Your arms are open and your “pores” even more open, Amma takes you into her arms and BLASTS you with enough shakti and love to catapult a rocket ship to another galaxy.
In that moment, the whole uncomfortable process of getting there disappears, and all that you remember is love.
And somehow, someway I always come out the other side of this experience not only a better, clearer, purer version of myself, but also 100% certain that this purification was essential in all ways. For my offerings to be more potent, my work to be more precise, my relationships to be more loving, and to continue evolving on this beautiful path of Yoga.
I once heard someone explain that taking my yoga class was equal to the experience of childbirth. While in the process of it, it’s terrible and you can’t wait for it to be over. But once you’re done, you’re first thought is, “That was fucking awesome!!! I want to do it again!” Well I haven’t pushed out a baby but this is EXACTLY how I feel about spending time with Amma.
Within the past month, I saw Amma on two different continents and also attended a 9-hour Shaktipat meditation intensive with the Siddha Yoga lineage. Which all of this just means that I’ve been sitting on my ass A LOT with my eyes closed.
Let me sum it all up for you to save you the trouble of spending countless hours in meditation. No need for the both of us to live the life of a monk.
Here’s what I felt going in:
There is a place within you, that is also within me. This is the spot in which the entire Universe rises into form and dissolves back into the infinite. When we are in this place within our own selves simultaneously, we are One. And this is Love.
As I emerged on the other side, it had simplified to:
I do not exist outside of you, yet you live within me.
Therefore…wherever you go, my love is with you always.
After completing my month of meditation, mantras and maniac moments (lol), my heart opened wide, love swelled within me up to my eyes. I swear it was pouring out of me and everywhere I looked I saw only beauty.
I wrote this poem in my head while driving home from the shaktipat intensive. After a month with my eyes closed, when I finally opened them, I had never been more clear -
“My love is with you in all ways, always.”
Wherever you are,
My love is with you...
It presents itself
In the most apparent
And unexpected ways.
Like when you stand
At the edge of the ocean,
And the expansiveness
Inspires you to deeply inhale.
That breath you take in
Is none other than my love.
Filling you with the remembrance
Of your own
Infinite and resplendent nature.
Or when you do the right thing,
You know it was right,
And it feels good inside
To have made such a choice.
Swelling within you
Is also my love.
Or when you perceive yourself to be stuck.
you feel free.
That was the work of my love
Longing to teach you
To see yourself
How I see
And know you to be.
And when the day’s sun is setting,
And for a moment
The meaning behind your existence.
My love kindles a fire inside of you
So as tomorrow
When your eyes open,
Your day appears
Your path more lit.
So sweet one,
Do you see?
You need not worry,
Or ever stop to question
My love is with you...
In all ways,